i didn't realize how i loved you
until i let myself begin to miss you
you were safe enough to
let you love me back
you gave me
your heart, unafraid
every part of me
aches for every
beautiful part of you

My papi, my darling
No, you're not mine
but i still love you
i'd love to lasso
your heart back to me
forget what makes sense!
who cares if my point
were valid
i want to believe
you can love me well
it's costing me more than
i can bear to admit
to keep choosing
myself
to keep remembering
why i walked away
i wish it wasn't over
oh, how i wish it wasn't over

12/16/17