sometimes

sometimes

i want to die

so much that

can't be mended

that needs to be

mended

the brokenness

spreads like a

disease

spreads like

wings

as sadness

sits atop

my hips

like a

sleepy child

sometimes

too much feels

like just enough

to push lungs

underwater

drowning

fills our

mouths with salt

and empties

them of breath

and truth

sometimes

i bargain

with god

and give

up on

the world

cuz "there's

not enough

light"

I scream

10/3/17